How it Feels to be Cut and What It Really Means

Growing up in school, or in sports, you would never want to hear your name called. If it was, there was fear of reprimand or god forbid, the principal's office. Now that I'm older, and involved in industries like pageantry and theater, I want to hear my name called. Whenever I'm at an audition, I want my name or number to be announced for a call back or dance call. However... more times than not, you won't hear your name. Or there will be instances when they do call your name, and the excitement might build, but you are released or cut. 


Not good, but keep this in mind...

Now getting cut or released from an audition is never really "the end". What I mean by this is that your relationship with the artistic team and staff of the theater is not tarnished or ruined because you are not asked to stay. For example, I auditioned for The Addams Family at an Equity house, I was asked to stay and dance, but did not move past that round. The artistic team was still gracious for my time, and 9 times out of 10, they will encourage you to return and try a different show or season. Me being 5'9" and tan was not maybe the best fit for that show, maybe I was too technical of a dancer, or not enough... and that's ok. It may feel like when you get released, it's a measure of your talent or ability or appearance, and in some cases, maybe, but those are only circumstances within the realm of this audition, NOT your life. Usually, the artistic team already has this picture in their head and sometimes you may stand out too much, or not enough. That is not an evaluation of your skills, but more so what this team needs for their production. 

Emotionally, getting cut or released can be overwhelming. It may feel like "why should I even try?", "What do I get out of this?" or "why am I not good enough?". Those are questions that answer themselves with perseverance. You should try because you believe in yourself enough to get yourself to that audition and do your best to showcase what you can do. What you get out of going through the audition process is priceless. You become more familiar with what makes you most comfortable in an audition on top of connecting with others who are doing the same and the theater staff and team. These are relationships that will help you professionally and, a lot of times, personally. You are good enough. Cheesy, I'm sure, but being an artist is hard regardless of medium. Rejection is everywhere and there will be some that are harder to get past than others, but you are pursuing this for a reason. Find your reason.


Something I like to do is write down the date of when a show was going to take place. For example, I was cut from a call earlier this week where the show was going to run in April/May of next year. I wrote the dates of the run down and I'm looking forward to seeing what opportunities I can take advantage of at that time. Maybe I'll land a role in an even bigger production. There is not meaning in everything, but when what you do is your everything, there has to be. This is an industry you have to be passionate about and there is a plethora of ways to go about it. 

I hope this is helpful. It's nice to be reminded that, although very personal, theater and performing, is an industry. It's better to think of yourself as an asset to a business: what can you provide? What can you gain? Carry those questions with you to auditions. Best wishes to all!